Almost a year since my last post to this site too. It's been an...interesting...year. Shortly after my last review (October of '14) while celebrating an anniversary we received a cancer diagnosis in my immediate family. It's amazing the effects a diagnosis like this can have on a family who has to watch their loved one suffer through the situation. You grieve even though no one has died. You are angry that everybody else seems fine but your family is suffering. You are angry that your family was singled out to tackle this challenge. You are resolved to help in any way you can...yet you feel so helpless. You are depressed in the face of the huge task before you. You steel up to try to be the pillar your loved one can lean on...yet you cocoon up to try to protect yourself and your loved one.
As I hear stories about cancer survivors (and those who did not survive) I'm even more amazed now at the exhibitions of bravery and strength evidenced by those who have suffered through the various forms of the disease and their families who journeyed with them.
Cancer can really kill any semblance of joy in your life if you let it...even if you aren't the one struggling with the disease. My focus was entirely on the disease and the next steps we had to take to move toward conquering it. I'd like to think I was strong...but I lost it on many an occasion. I'm only just starting to get my "mojo" back to be honest. And by "just" I mean...maybe a month ago I started to feel the layers coming off? I'm starting to read again...starting to vary my hobbies again...starting to begin looking at life as a whole and not just the "next steps" in front of me.
It may take me a while to get in the groove of things again. I'm slowly going to start updating this page...I've also started a blog page called Ishari's Collection that I will link to on this page. Bear with me as I start working on this and check back often if you like. I hope to create an update schedule and be more reliable with my updates as I move forward.
I am so thankful that the cancer in my loved one now appears to be fully gone thanks to surgery and the miracle of modern medicine. We are hopeful now life will continue to go back to "normal"....whatever "normal" truly means.